I have two days of nothingness, since I failed my drive test and have 2 days before my retest…usually these empty days kill me. When I can’t connect the things I do to something larger in the end, I get severely depressed. Things for myself, such as reading, doing art, etc…since they aren’t ‘work’, I feel useless and I feel as if I’ve wasted the day and thats when depression jumps on me, when I’m feeling vulnerable.

But I’ve been ok over the past few days. Maybe I’m slowly learning to get a grip on my bipolar? I really hope so. Because I have a funny feeling that some bad stuff is going to go down when school starts.

Also, its weird, when I feel better it feels like I can councel other people. Like I know all the answers…(though I know I actually don’t).