I am 13 5ft and at the moment I weigh about 98 lbs =[ I want to be about 70 lbs aventuraly but i guess 84 would be okaii for now. Im surrounded by skinny people all the time and my friends are always making sure I eat, I mean yea I no they want whats best for me but this is a thing i want to do. I need support and at the moment im getting none. Most of the time i feel totaly disgusting after I have eaten something. When i look in the mirror all I see is a fugly teen, im sick of it. I just want to be beautiful. I feel totaly lost and i don’t no what to do, I can’t talk to my family about it because they wouldnt understand, I mean how could they? They don’t have to be dealing with all the guys at school and everything. =[ I feel so bad saying all this cuz i no you think im stupid and should be happy with how I look but that would just be lying to myself and everybody around me. Its not like i enjoy doing this to myself but how else will i get there. I want to show people that i am strong enough to do this to myself. It’s so hard, Please if there is anyone who can help me with this or wants to do it with me comment.
Thankyou.
x
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thin doesn't make you happy
Hi there, i saw your posting and i had to reply. I am 23 years old and i know how it feels to want to be thin more than anything else. When i was 16, i began to diet and weighed 110 pounds by the time i was 18. I am 5 feet 9 inches tall. So, yes, i was very thin….too thin. I thought that being this thin would make me feel powerful and sexy, but in reality all i felt was horrible. all i thought about was wanting to be skinny, what i could or couldnt eat, and i was hungry all the time. It was like i had a little voice in my head telling me not to eat when i was hungry. I thought that i would be more attractive to guys if i was thin…but the funny thing is that i wasnt. Any guy who is worth your time will like you just how you are, not any skinnier. What makes you a strong person is being happy with who you are, and helping other people. I know it’s hard to believe this, and i truely understand how you feel from having experienced what you are going through. I now 140 pounds and have recovered from the eating disorder. Now i am truely happy. If you don’t feel like you have anyone to talk to, feel free to email me. I would be happy to listen. My name is Sharon, and my email is sharon_summer_girl@hotmail.com
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