I guess I’m just not very good at realising who my real friends are…

I’ve been hanging around with the same bunch of people for years now. They bring me down, they make me unhappy, they remind me of times in my past Im trying to let go of and they create pointless drama. Yet I still hang around with them – I guess I just dont know any difference.

I think Im scared of being alone. Being without friends. So I still cling to the terrible ones thinking this will make me happy but they bring me down…

I also feel like I cant change this because they go to my favourite places and I cant get away from them… I feel like I just want to ignore them when I see them, forget about them, but I cant. I end up giving them hugs and chatting, when inside Im screaming!

However, lately I haven’t seen them as I havent gone out to our usual favourite places. They haven’t called me to see where I am. I doubt they even notice Im not there…

And I actually feel happier.
Like a bad part of me has left, the shadow has disappeared…

Im moving on.
I need to continue with this and value the friends who have been there all along. Get back in touch with the good ones I’ve lost along the way. Maybe get the confidence to make new friends??

Hope this is the start of something really positive. x