Every time I feel like I’m going into a certain mood, I come right out of it. Something distracts me and I forget all about it. Am I trying to do this? Its all very confusing to me.

Sometimes having to wait so long to see what will happen is worse than the worst thing that could happen. I’m the kind of person who’d rather jump out from behind a building and shoot and get shot than wait there in total petrified fear. I absolutely detest the feeling of fear. So I take the initiative, and say I’m not afriad of getting hurt or getting killed, and jump in and let the fight take over.

Still, I hate waiting.