well… those dang dishes lol… I’ve not been doing so great concerning this dishes deal; who’d a thunk someone could turn such little tasks into these huge psycho-traumatic issues – I don’t know how I manage to do it.

...on the bright side i can say this; there was a stack of several dishes and utensils that were on the end of the sink counter that i washed up and put away yesterday (away is in the dishwaser lol)...

but those three/four pots and pans that include one with a bunch of burnt stuff on the bottom is still sitting IN the sink; i put fresh soaking water in it every so often…

they seem to be serving one purpose; i look at them, i realize that they need to be cleaned up or even just thrown away – and i end up doing some other house related clean-up chore that needs to be done, just to avoid touching them or anything within a five foot radius of the sink….

i will EITHER eventually be left with nothing left BUT those to do, or I will in a sudden burst of courage take the plunge and attack them….

It’s not really as bad as I make it seem, a little gross maybe – but I’ve come to dread them so much I have some kind of problem with them.

But ya know, I have to admit something while I’m thinking of it: I have this one weird issue, this happens with EVERY goal, every thing i do… from Dentist visits, to social phobias, to household chores, you NAME it; I develop a fear that becomes greater than reality itself. It develops a life of it’s own. I don’t know if that makes any sense but I’ve talked about this with my therapist, and my counselor too (which is a therapist w/o a degree basically)and well they’ve at least told me that it’s not uncommon. I need to work on it.

Thanks so much for asking.
Your kindness and enthusiasm is more inspiring and helpful than you probably even imagine. Thank you SO very much. I hope you’re doing well! So… did you get ALL your dishes done? I’m jealous!!! hehe….