I suddenly realised tonight what exactly is this feeling of sadness in my chest. I realised how much I’m missing him, and that what I’m missing is our friendship. I’m missing one of the best friends I had ever had. I’m missing the way we undestood each other, I’m missing the way we saw the world together, the way we laughed together, I’m missing all we liked to do together, I’m missing the fact that wathever I did, it was just right to do it with him.

I know I knew it yet, I know I wrote it yet. I know the terrible limits to the friendship I also discovered. But I’m feeling so sad tonight…

I’m so missing hearing the sound of his voice.

Off to bed.