I have never really felt that I fit in with people. I like people and I like to think that I can get on with most people – I know sometimes, you just can’t. I feel that I am often confused about what I want. I want to be different, yet I want to be accepted; I want to be an individual, yet I want to be part of a group. I want to be me, yet I want to belong.

I’m not sure how these are supposed to work. I would like to feel strong enough to just be me and not feel that I have to back down to convention, just so I don’t get strange looks from people. I never really know what to say to fit in – conversations tend to go fine for the most part, but then I also get the awkward silence as if I’ve said something really weird…

I wish I were stronger, more able to decide. I don’t know how I can work out which is more important to me. Embarrassment might make me think fitting in is more important, but I’m not convinced that I do think it is. I just need to learn to be okay with being me. Any ideas on how?? :)