once you cope with the fact that you are not normal, and that you have to work harder than everyone else, it gets easier.
think of it this way, everyone out there, in school or at work who considers themselves more productive, more intelligent, and better than you in general isnt really better at all. you have to work so much harder than them to get to where you are, even on medication. they probably couldn’t handle it if everything wasn’t that easy for them.
just remember, its not your fault, ever.