the way I’ve treated Jacob
the way I’ve treated my kids
the way I treated so many other people
that I have regressed so far from what I wanted to be, and almost was
that I am still so awful, and hateful
that Hanna fell, and then we went bike riding
that I had all those people over to dons,
that I got caught with andrew
that I made my mother go all over hell for him
that I told her she wasn’t my mother
that I haven’t been writing all this time
that I took Kaleb to the jaundice thing
that I started leaving walden at 2 weeks
that I’m still not really vegan
that I got that close foy
noriega
sleeping on the street, getting caught
all the million other stupid things I’ve done