ok, let’s get this straight – I have no qualms about being a bitch. I can’t stand the flippant use of the word ‘bitch’, so therefore I decided years ago to take it as a compliment (well, more or less) when people said i was a bitch. mind you, it’s usually my sisters or close pals calling me out on me being a bitch, which i think is funny and a good reality check to chill out.

Anyway, i digress- my point is, what is the fine line between Standing Up for Myself and Being a Beeotch? I also need to work on letting things go – so i suppose my goal at the moment is to discern when to let things go graciously (a fine art),and when to assert myself. In the past i’ve chosen the wrong moments for each.

Would love to chat with someone who also experiences this problem. I tend to take out my anger in ugly ways, at the wrong times. Letting things build, and getting too upset with the wrong person.

Yesterday I felt a bit salty at two different times, when someone, in a public situation, acted in a rude way toward me. I chose to let both instances go, and not stand up for myself. I think i did the best thing by letting it go – but i can never be sure. For ex., i went to step aerobics last night. We were a good 7 minutes into the class. Instructor had already been thru the spiel of “make sure you can all see me, and my legs”, so as to follow along.
Then a woman came on late, and, despite heaps of room in the back of the class (where i would personally put myself upon entering late), she set up her step directly in front of mine,at the front of the classroom. No regard at all for her blocking me. I had to stop the routine, get down and push my step a bit so that it wasnt lined up with hers.

Thanks, lady. Now, I was annoyed, and thought she was very rude. But, as i continued to work out, i realised she probably is just unthoughtful and clueless. Should i politely say something to her at the end? Could do. But i didn’t. Didn’t think it was worth it.

Anyway – I shall report back when I do find an instance where standing up for myself is actually necessary, and i do just that.