I don’t think this really falls under my “be happier” goal, but I need to write about it and I’m not sure where else to put it. I really don’t have anybody to talk to about personal things and I feel better if I can just stuff off of my chest sometimes. Anyway, I think I might be pregnant. I know this is something I should talk to my DH about, but I don’t want to until I know for sure. I don’t think he would be too happy about it and don’t want to bring it up unless I have to. I took a home test, but it came out neg. I still have a week until I’m supposed to start and I think that I could have tested too early. The test said the first day of my missed period, but I couldn’t wait. I have had spotting which could have been implantation bleeding, I’ve been feeling kind of sick of the morning (especially when brushing teeth which was the way it was with my DS), eating a bunch, tired all the time, and been peeing a lot. I haven’t had any breast tenderness though. I just wish I knew. I would be OK either way, but the waiting is the hardest part. I think DH would be OK, too. It would just take him some time to adjust.
Anyhow, I just needed to let it out and try to relax about it a bit. I hope this helps a little.