I think this was my mom’s favorite time of year. then again she gave all year round like it was christmas everyday. Why does it seem harder now than it did when she first passed? I am having our first ever xmas party at our house for myside of the family and i am excited and sad at the same time… Christmas is getting harder and harder to be excited for. Mom I miss you so much and miss the chance at knowing and learning so much more, the chance of the friendship that could have been.