well first of all,im 19 and i work 2 jobs to keep myself busy and of course to save up some money,but the problem that i am having is that i think about my ex-girlfriend randomly.i met her when i was in middle school.and thats where it all started through highschool.we had a on and off relationship. but then she broke up with me when we were in 10th grade,its because she lost her love for me because i never spent time with her during our relationship..i guess you can say i took her for granted..but its true when people say u dont realize what you have untill its gone..and thats how i felt the day she broke up with me..ive tried everything i could to make it upp..but she still rejected..until when i became a junior i moved out of the country to move with my grandmother just to get away becuse i couldnt handle the pain that i was feeling,i moved to the philippines for about 2 years and i thought i have moved on until moved back to the U.S. in 2006..i mean now i actually talk to her.i mean we are in good terms..as friends,but what she doesnt know is when i see or talk to her,i always have this heavy feeling in my chest that i cant really describe..like the pain is still there.and its been like 4 years since we broke up..i mean i love her but im not in love with her..i wake up thinking about her and i think about her before i sleep,i mean i pray for her b4 i sleep..the only is everytime i try to bring back our past she ends up pushing away from me..and i dont want to lose my friendship over that with her..i mean since i was a lil kid in middle school..and now im suppose to be in 2nd year in college..now that shes moved on with someone else..i really cant think of anything to do right now..shes like my sweet misery,if you put it in terms.hehe..but any advice or opinions out there would def help.and thanks for reading,,
godbless..