sitio Every minute is a choice

don't take things personally (read all 3 entries…)
what was behind scenario #1? 4 years ago

Oh, did I do poorly this morning.

A woman has before driven up to the house across from ours and honked. This isn’t a beep-beep honk. This is a long and hard I’m getting very angry at the person who doesn’t come out on time honk. It gets worse and worse.

This morning she honks again and woke me up (again).

I got out of bed, went outside and calmly approached her and I said. “Please, listen, i know that you are anxious and late, but i was sleeping and you have started my day poorly too.” She said, “Oh my, I’m very sorry that I was thinking only of myself”.

Uh, yeah, no. That would have been me NOT taking things personally. This is how it really went.

I walked out and I said, “you’ve done this before. It is very loud.” She said defensively, “only once.” I said, well don’t do it. She said, I CAN IF I WANT TO. I said, no, get out of your car and walk to the door where you can be as loud as you want. She said, f**k off. I flipped he off and she said, “oh you’re bad” and i said, “and you are very loud and rude.”

That’s what actually happened and I have to say that the anger and confrontation was totally unsatisfactory. I have often wondered about the attitude of people who would, at 7:30 am, sit outside in a very densely housed neighborhood and honk, honk, honk. I have silently allowed my anger at the morning honkers grow and grow and when I had the opportunity to confront this one, I did it allowing her honking to trigger my personal storehouse of anger.

I really wish I could have seen how scenario 1 played out.



Comments:

SallyKitt "Action is the antidote to despair" - Joan Baez

well...

I think the visualization of the other possibility was a) a very interesting and amusing comparison to read and b) a sign that you will probably be able to actually try this out the next time something like this happens.

It takes a lot of consciousness and self-training to not act upon our first responses. I have a long commute to and from work on L.A. freeways, and I have to say that practicing something akin to this goal has become a real necessity. It’s so easy to take the occaisional aggressive tail-gater or cutter-offer personally. But if I do, it’s easy to respond as if they are threatening me very personally. They’re just wound up in their own mess… as you noted in your “first response.”

Good for you for thinking about this. I’m not saying I’m always successful, but I think it’s a great goal. I may just add it myself. thanks!

Cathy H. is hardly working!

All things considered..

I know this doesn’t excuse your behavior… but you could have been a lot nastier. I know someone who would throw eggs at people’s cars if they honked their horns outside of his apartment building… so, compared to taht person, you’re pretty good… and the honking lady could have reacted a lot better to the situation, too… so don’t be too hard on yourself…

Even though it was painful/frustrating/infuriating

I am so glad you shared this story with us. It’s such a clear scenario that we can all learn from. I find your story (and the clarity you have on it after the fact) touching.

sitio Every minute is a choice

thanks, Flashgirl

What a kind thing to say.

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Good going!

I think that experiencing scenario 2 will turn out to be much more valuable than going straight to scenario 1. It prompted some self-reflection, where you appear to have been quite honest with yourself about where you went “wrong”. Rarely ever a futile exercise. I’m a big proponent of “hands on” learning…hehe…

Good job!


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