carahmello my life is changing
and i really need to stop. I have seen a controlling side of me lately that i didnt really realize i had and it scares me. IM scared he will get fat, so i control what he eats, and tell him to work out sometimes. I make him get up early cause it annoys me when he gets up late, even though he gets up after my 1 1/2 hrs of getting ready. I make him throw away every singe piece of garbage he sets on the table…even though i KNOW i leave gun wrappers around all the time. I want him to be this perfect man, even though im not the perfect woman. He is a great amazing caring guy and i shouldnt need him to be anything more….and just let him be who he is. He says he likes it when im motivating, but there is a differance between motivating and controlling….and i see that now.