My brother’s girlfriend and I were having one of those talks girls have where you can just say anything and be open and honest (sometimes referred to as being drunk!) and she said something that’s really made me think.

She told me that I have such a strong personality, she was scared of me when she met me. I said that wasn’t true and she reminded me that I punched her (just a little!) but I told her that was only because I was protective of my brother.

She still thinks that my personality is too strong and that I am a bitch sometimes. She was actually shocked no one had ever told me that. I perceive myself as outgoing and charismatic, lol! I do realize that I can be a little overwhelming for people who are used to being very shy and silent when they meet people so now I am worried that it’s turning people off.

As far as the bitch part goes -I do need to realize that I am crabby way more often than I used to be which makes me be a bitch to certain people. I just never thought of myself that way because I am always nice to strangers. I hold doors, start conversations, comment people on their hair, am understanding people working in customer service, etc.

I’m glad she said something, though. I am going to watch myself now and try to tone it down a little bit and make sure I am not being crabby and taking it out on people. An even better place to start would be to take care of the things that are making me crabby- my weight, a certain friend, school, money…