that actually makes good sense. I’ve just never been alone, my entire life….i was one of 5 kids, got married fairly young, had 4 kids, and was with their dad until 1 year ago….now he’s gone, and i’m struggling to adjust to being alone. i don’t know how to do it.
i’ve latched onto someone, and i’m too clingy and needy, and i’m pushing him away, i can see it. And, i know he doesn’t want a permanent arrangement with me. i have four kids, the youngest just turned 3. He’s 6 years older than me, which isn’t that bad, but his son has already graduated high school…so, he’s just “through” with the parenting thing, and he’s just at a different stage in life, and my life doesn’t seem to mesh with his that well. He’s challenging to say the least, but i love him. i just know i’m never going to be anything to him though. He’s already been married 4 times…so, he’s not going to get in too deep with me, and i guess that’s understandable. So, i’m just kinda stuck in limbo. I want to be with him….but, i know it’s not going to happen….and yet i can’t give him up. Not to mention it’s the best sex either of us have ever had…But, he has nothing more to contribute or offer to me. He doesn’t take me out, he doesn’t do things with me, we just do ONE thing… And, i know a relationship needs a lot more than that to have a chance…but, i’m so scared of being alone, that i put up with it. I guess i need to figure out how to be happy being alone, and then from there, a companion will be a welcome addition. I just don’t see that happening for me though.