He has a girlfriend. They live together. She’s gorgeous yet seems modest. Shes hispanic. Im white bread. I cant compete with her. She has the body of a model yet dresses in such a modest way with loose t shirts. Gadges in her ears.
I know exactly what it is about him that makes me queezy. He’s touchy feely. He hugs … I love hugs. He’s tall and beautiful in a modest way. He’s nice and generous. He has a beautiful essence about him. He has a kind spirit. A beautiful smile. He’s laid back yet ambitious and about the finish college.
He’s majoring in International Relations, which was my major while i was in college.
He speaks to all people with the same generous nature.
He touches everyone with his hands. He’s not afraid of people.
Im so infatuated with him. I need to stop because he has a girlfriend.
Im probably just making him out to be perfect and he;s not really what Im thinking he is. But honestly i have this feeling that i dont get for many people. Its a feeling of just something being so right about him.
We smoked in my car the last two nights. just me and him. Its not that big of a deal but i cant help but be so happy inside that he actually wants to smoke with me.
Last night he asked me where i came from and i said colorado and he asked how long was i there and i told him a year and he asked was it a guy and i said yeah and he said o was it air force and he was right.
he was right on the money.
he said that he moved to colorado to be with a girl too. and it obviously didnt work out bc he;s living here now.
but he said .. o well we learn.

But i just want to know how he sees me.
I want to know if he sees me as a child? as a possible lover? Ill never know. But maybe i can find out.