it’s so weird. i love him. he loves me. but we’re not in any way ready to get married. we’ve talked about it and we both like the way things are now and think anything more serious would put undesired stress on the relationship.

...but i can’t get out of my head the fact that i would be so happy as his wife.

so i’m definitely sticking with him and who knows, maybe in a two or three years, we’ll be ready.

wow, that makes me smile, and yet scares me so much….