This has been one of the toughest things to deal with as a teenager. I have a very big heart and would do anything for my family and friends. For some reason showing affection is a very tough thing for me. Even a simple “i love you” to my mom is very difficult. I honestly cant even get into a relationship because of this. I have had my chances but found that im internally not ready. It wouldnt be fare for him, when im just sitting there in a daze. I dont know how to love back and i want to so bad. My desire and my heart is there but my mind isnt for some reason if that makes any sense. Im not a cold person and im not selfish. Im actually one of the most honest and sincere good hearted people you would ever meet. (not trying to be cocky) But this is one struggle that i used to be able to live with but its eating me up inside. I dont know what to do with myself anymore. My mind keeps going in circles.