The fact is you will be able to accomplish all your goals but you need to stay stopped. I have been a recovering alcoholic now since 1986 and i am only 43 as i write this. i also have an 8 year old and I am so blessed she has never seen me drunk. You are not alone but you need others to help you. This is a disease of isolation and the devil wants you alone so he can continue to work on you. The alcohol is really only the symptom of this nightmare and the good news is that God has the power to relieve all of it if you will allow Him too. I will continue to keep you in my prayers. AA is a secular way to get involved in the recovery process. Celebrate Recovery is a new movement allowing Christ to be the center of your live. You can ask at your local chuch or Celebrate Recovery .com. God Bless and Good Luck