So, I think I’m afraid of success. I’ve been trying to finish school for 7-8 years now, and haven’t done so. A few months ago I started investigating the possibility that I’m ADHD, and have even been taking medication for that. While I still think I have some form of ADHD, someone recently brought to my attention the possibility that I’m self-sabotaging because I’m afraid of success. I’ve spent a few days thinking about it and I think he’s absolutely right.

I found a great article by Steve Pavlina that gave me some ideas for where I can start: Fear of Success: What will happen if you succeed?. As Pavlina suggests, I’ve started mapping out the pros and cons of my ideal version of success. Turns out there are some pretty big cons, some of which I hadn’t really considered fully, which, I’m now convinced, is why I’m so afraid of them. Really starting to think about which of my fears are irrational and which are rational (and which of the rational fears have practical solutions I can begin to implement now) will really help me to deal with this, I think.

I appreciate any support or suggestions everyone else can provide. Cheers!