he is a manipulating idiot. So how do I react, by trying to kill myself. I totally lost the will to live trying to please him. What happened to me. That is what I need to be concerned about and not having a happy marriage. What happened to me? Thank God for good friends who knew how to help. So I give up on a marriage. No I don’t blame him for my depression but I do blame him for lying and using me to find himself. Still he is angry because I am stronger and don’t want him anymore.