mintchip is trying to get back on track!
Good Morning Fellow Cleansers!
Last night was hard. I had a lot of cravings, felt hungry. Didn’t give in. The tea woke me in the night and it actually worked this time. Not any cramping all night before but the gut-wrenching feeling the moment before it works is still just nauseating.
Woke up this morning and took my SWF like a champ. Sipping on my mint tea and getting ready to begin my work day. Hopefully I will be more focused today. I really wasn’t productive yesterday at all.
A few thoughts on motivation and nonsupport… Yesterday I spoke with my boyfriend’s mother on the phone and she asked what we were having for dinner. I said I’m not having anything, I’m MCing. She said well what is my boyfriend having then? I get the feeling she was trying to break me (talking about food). She’s not the evil mother-in-law from hell, I really like her actually, just to clarify. But she is one of the unsupportive people regarding the cleanse. I mentioned that I had planned to be done by Easter before I knew we were doing it early, but now I wont eating early Easter. She was like, “well just wait and see what happens.” Like I’m going to quit. That really irritated me, but motivated me I guess.
Last night when I said I was going to bed because I was hungry my boyfriend was like “eat something then.” When he looks at me with those brown eyes like: I love you the way you are, it is so easy to cave. But I didn’t. He really isn’t a fan of the cleanse either, I think mostly because he doesn’t get me cooking my delicious meals! But also I think he doesn’t like me getting too thin. No one seems to understand the other reasons and benefits for cleansing,I guess because the weight loss is so apparent.
Lastly I had to mention it to my friend that was my fellow cleanser last round, a year ago, but bitched and moaned the whole process, and was against but did it anyways. I was worried about her being super unsupportive, but when I mentioned it, because we are meeting on Saturday with the girls to plan her baby shower, she was actually cool, and said I could show up at 1:30 after lunch. So that was nice.
Anyways, sorry for the novel. Just some things on my mind that I had to get out. If I can make it through today I think I am 100% there. Once I’m at day 5 there is really no possibility of quitting. Thanks everyone for your support and I look forward to reading your comments, and entries throughout the day. Hang in there!