My biggest problem is always over thinking things when I want to do something. Somehow I think that this is going to keep me out of trouble, but all it really does is keep me from doing anything that isn’t completely comfortable. Part of it is just a lack of trust that I’ll say no to things I really don’t want to do. Anyone who grew up with overbearing parents (especially legalistic christian ones) will know what I’m talking about. The criteria for doing something is really high, like “is this the best thing to do right now?” which is totally unanswerable and anxiety producing. Even lowering the bar to “is this a good thing to do?” would be better. Of course getting it down to “is this not a bad thing to do?” might work out better. Part of it is just to make a conscious decision to use one of these statements and stick to it so you don’t feel like you have to weigh every single urge you ever have independently. I don’t want to just be an animal and do everything I have the slightest impulse to do, but at the same time being paralized is stupid too.
Those pesky urges
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Still a Christian
I’d like to add that I’m still a very strong christian and I’m still trying to live like it. Its just that “living like a christian” often seems to mean not being Christ like. I mean, Jesus drank wine, went to parties, worked on Sunday, had friends who were prostitutes and scammers, and hated the religious leaders. I can’t do all that and stay good because of my weakness; avoiding such situations does not show your strength. I find it very sad that in trying to make people “good” christians often prevent people from knowing God, though its still important to know right from wrong for our own good. Its hard to get to the point where you can just pick something right to do and just do it without being anxious that you picked the right one.
