I’m so glad I emailed Scott regarding Hannalee calling him daddy and insisting on it. It was so incredibly uncomfortable to address this, but I really felt it was needed. I know I wrote about this elsewhere, but can’t remember where I put it and am too lazy to look.

The email was sent Saturday morning, which I knew he was in training. He took an all day class on relationships – boundaries, etc. Perfect, eh? Not sure if he read the email before church or not, but we didn’t really talk hardly, just a few “Hi’s”.

Monday night we had our Cleansing Streams Bible study which he was late to. During the break, he came and he talked with me for a few moments about my email. It started off really awkward, as if he didn’t know what I was talking about, but then did acknowledge it.

That helped as seeing me face-to-face meant that he wasn’t trying to skirt things. The in person thing helped me to see his reactions, etc. Sometimes these are quite uncomfortable with me, but necessary and I can TOTALLY respect a person who does this, as Henry is not this way at all, rather very secretive.

Scott did not want to let things that are very concerning to me fall to the wayside and wants to get things resolved. I left pretty immediately after the Bible study as I was so tired. He stayed.

When I awoke this morning, to my surprise, there was a long email from him further elaborating what he did not express the night before in person. It was a very well-written, thoughtful email. Since it was a fairly deep email, those kinds of emails take me time to process.

My day was pretty jam packed and parts of it were fairly emotional. Normally I don’t address emotional things during trading hours, if possible.

He called me around dinner time and we talked for awhile, clearing the air up. He wasn’t sure if I got the email and wanted to be sure we were on the same wavelength. He wanted me to know what a blessing we were to his life, as I expressed similarly for him.

I truly am enjoying this friendship a lot and have an even greater, deeper respect for Scott, knowing some of where he is coming from. I shared with him my relationship with him, a male, is fairly new to me. Meaning, having good appropriate boundaries, having a really healthy relationship.

There was a little more to learn what bothered him that I did. He said that was in the past, but I said I was clueless as to what bothered him and am not a mindreader. Since there is so much on my plate, it’s best to not leave me to guess, but just tell me. He relunctantly told me and I said I would work on the things he said.

He did not like pointless conversations nor me being competitive with him. I’m now aware and can do something about it. It doesn’t mean walking on eggshells, but it’s not such a big deal to change this.

I am so glad we can talk these things out, work them out!!!

Praise be to God for how He’s working in Scott, in me, and that we can honor God in our relationship. What a blessing it is!!!