I almost have panic attacks when I am not in control of something in my life. I feel like a complete failure, and I feel like I can’t stop trying until I have that control. I think this has affected me in many ways, my relationships, my work and my homelife. And then, when I am an otherwise very organized person, it seems like everything just explodes. I can’t distinguish between what I can and cannot control, and then I am so overwhelmed, I just give up altogether. I need to focus on striking a balance between what I can control, and what is out of my control.