I’m exploring the aspects of awareness right now. There seem to be two fundamental states of awareness: that of the mind and that of the external environment. I’ve recently transitioned into a state of awareness of my mind. I could see clearly everything that I want and see that it was pulling me left and right. It was not very consistent though, and my state of mind is no longer so clear. I then experienced a subtle state of awareness of my external environment. This state was not as easy to harness. I don’t even know if it really was a state of awareness. That is how subtle it seemed. I may just be trying too hard…

On the other hand, that may just be the thing I need to focus on. Why am I trying so hard?