Thought not necessarily in a good way :(.

What I mean is, I have a long running problem with allowing myself to experience and to express my sadness and anger. Well, unfortunately, I’ve had a lot of reasons to feel those ways this week. I’m not going into detail, but my week was already bad when I had a major falling out with an old friend tonight. Maybe it’s because of the other problems I had this week, but when my friend (?) said something extremely insulting to me, I just immediately felt the anger in a way I normally do not. Normally I would just feel it deep down, for an instant, then immediately doubt my right to feel it and later only half feel it when it was too late to react in a way that made sense. This time I was able to feel it fully, right away, and react in a way that, hours later, I still believe was appropriate (I stated firmly why I was angry and then left).

I feel almost silly writing about these things because I realize it comes so naturally to some, but not to me. So it felt like a major breakthrough.