I working on the same goal. More confidence! I’m not sure what the answer is, but as long as you keep working at your goals there will come a day when you will find what you are looking for.
Good Luck, Martin.

I actually had a similar problem a few years ago, where i use to doubt my own ability to make decisions. What helps is to just sometimes think for a moment what it is that you want. What is your heart telling you. Forget the people, the critics, the values of society that tell you what is right and wrong. Pretend for a moment that everyone in the world is indifferent to your decision. And when you have disassociated everyone else from yourself, then ask yourself what do you want to do for yourself. Just have faith in yourself and before you know it, you can check this goal off your list. Best of luck my friend :)