heaveemetal You've got dreams inside They cut I know Cut so deep but you never sho
to download the text messages from my cell phone…I am going to post the response to some proof of what a monster I can be when I get mad…
I am like someone possessed…and it sucks…
heaveemetal You've got dreams inside They cut I know Cut so deep but you never sho
we’ll do it this way…time lapse photos and edited…
one 3 screen reply to one of my diatribes…I truly suck and am an asshole at times…
heaveemetal You've got dreams inside They cut I know Cut so deep but you never sho
what a bad thing to be good at…
heaveemetal You've got dreams inside They cut I know Cut so deep but you never sho
another proud moment and feather in my cap…
ScorpioNerve is bound for the ocean this summer! and hoping her son will be OK
You are very brave!
heaveemetal You've got dreams inside They cut I know Cut so deep but you never sho
be doing much for myself without acknowledgment of the areas I need improvement in…
This area is number 1…
ScorpioNerve is bound for the ocean this summer! and hoping her son will be OK
it’s sad if someone felt they had to fix themselves somehow because of a relationship. I remember feeling that way in my past – it feels awful when someone you are with thinks there’s something a) wrong with you and b) it’s a possible love match if that can be fixed.
The text to you sounds manipulative too, and hopeful you will come back for more of whatever you gave or had together – don’t beat yourself up too much- from my armchair psych lens it looks like there was manipulation on both parts.
Hopefully the anger in you ends up with some real heat in a relationship – a good kind! Thank you for sharing something so personal.
heaveemetal You've got dreams inside They cut I know Cut so deep but you never sho
about manipulative…
I don’t need to worry about that anymore…
It got real old and fairy tales never come true…
28days is holding on tight...
that you can admit your own weaknesses. the weak can tell others their weaknesses, it is only the strong who can admit to others their own weaknesses. honestly.
i am grateful you have shared this…
but i am sad for you that… its like you are on self destruct when you are angry. i dont know how to describe what i feel. sorry.
but you remind me of a friend… and i promise that you will get through this…
sorry if this comes out sounding incredibly lame!!
x
heaveemetal You've got dreams inside They cut I know Cut so deep but you never sho
you don’t sound lame at all…
At my age I don’t need the anger build up inside of me anymore…it’s not healthy…
28days is holding on tight...
keep me posted on how you are going?
i for one am definitely behind you on this. you have support, if ever you need it.
peace out and good luck :D
x
heaveemetal You've got dreams inside They cut I know Cut so deep but you never sho
all the help I can get…;)
entries, friends and support make everything easier…
nastro azzurro life rewards the risk-takers
not a good thing that u react like that, these things do happen (as u well know). obviously u have been really angered and provoked within ur relationship with this person.
i have been like that and 10 times worse with my exbf, i was so ashamed by the evil twisted things i said and did to him and swearing at him etc because i was so fed up, hurt, angry etc. and i know what u mean when u say u become like a monster possessed.
i havent read all ur other posts on this, so dont know how often this happens and if its with the same person or different people. if it is the same people time and again, perhaps u need to get them out of ur life as they are a negative influence and making u react in this way.
as i said i didnt read all ur entrys but just wanted to say do not be so hard on ur self mr H. your only human, we all make mistakes. and the thing is even tho u have said and done these terrible things, u are aware of the issue and u want to try and make it better. so thats good that u can acknowledge it and be aware of it and try to make it better. for this and any other negative issues in ur life, u also have lots of positives things about u (from what i can see from ur goals).
so just be strong, try to be calmer and aware of ur self when ur in that negative zone if u can. i hope things get much better and the negative behaviours go eventually
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