It’s been a year since I’ve graduated college and I still haven’t cut out the binge drinking. To my credit, I’ve gotten a lot better. I’ve slowed down, big time. Cut out drinking during the work week entirely. Most weekends, I will only have one or two beers when I go out. This has been the norm for several months.

Until last night.

Right now I am suffering from a bad headache from having too many glasses of wine at a dinner party last night. I said some things I regret and I was hungover all day instead of enjoying the beautiful spring weather.

I don’t want to cut drinking completely. I enjoy a good microbrew every now and then. But it is scary when I drink too much and don’t remember things from the night before. Plus, I know some scary alcoholics and I don’t want that to be me. I don’t want to live my life in a blur.

My goal is to never binge drink again. I have to be absolute about it. I can’t have “exceptions” for holidays or birthdays. I want to get it in control all the time.

I have to be intentional EVERY time I drink. Last night I had my guard done. (Granted the fact you’re supposed to drink four glasses of wine during passover seder didn’t help my cause). But there were people drinking grape juice.

This is going to be one of my hardest goals to achieve. But I believe I can do it.