he is just such an amazing person, I could easily say the kindest person I’ve met, so I want him to be happy. I mean if all plans fail, I still want to be there for him as a friend and just know that he’ll find someone just as kind and generous and beautiful both on the inside as on the outside, someone equal to him. It’s a strange thing to wish so much happiness for someone, wishing it without expecting or wanting anything in return, but that is what I want. Hmmm…this feels nice, it’s like a big relief for some reason.