everyday is the same, nothing changes. but the only one i can blame for the monotony and misery is me. all the people around me that annoy the hell out of me: that’s my fault – a combo of my perception of people and my choice not to remove myself from them.

i’m coming out of it, slowly though, but i can see a horizon. what’s helped me: tons – and i mean tons of self-talk, discussing real issues with myself and not just complaining in my head. also, being honest and vocal with people and axing that fake smile. and one more: taking tidbits of various self-help info (i’d never buy a book, or participate in a scripted lifestyle change – no one should think happiness is obtained through someone else’s idea) and absorb the things that are relevant and make sense.

so, you’re not alone – i understand.

clear your mind, get away, it seems as though you are stuck in a vicious cycle. go to the ocean, breathe again. find out what you really want from this life and just go for it! don’t let other peoples’ perceptions of you stop you from being the best you can be. laugh, live and love! and it is my promise to you that your life will be fufilled. success isnt determined by how much money you have, nor is it by what position you hold in society. success at the end of the day is determined by whether or not your happy. so lose the fake smile, and look for the real one. it is there.. you’ll just have to find it.

xx

Thanks for all the advice. I’m really glad I’m not the only one. (:
And I’m slowly learning to take risks and getting out of this “bubble”, in order to find out what it is I truly want that makes me happy. You’re right, there is more to life than just money. Up until now I’ve been so overwhelmed and felt like a “slave” to someone while being treated with no respect from others. It was totally not worth it. Good thing there’s still time left..’cause I want to prove to people that I can be successful too, but in a positive way.