I know I have low self esteem. I’ve messed up so much lately. I’ve lost tons of self respect. I’m doing things I know are wrong. I’m in a relationship that’s only fostering the things I’ve been doing, yet I feel like I need it and don’t want to end it. I can’t forgive myself for what I’ve done, yet I continue to do these things. The choices I’ve made make it feel impossible to have any respect for myself. I’ve never felt so far away from God. I’ve never felt less deserving of God. I’ve never had more inner conflict.