...if she’s out there?
“You can call me Mary Lou…”

-I’m getting pretty used to be the one that you always ignore…

Everyone around me is such a disapointment. That feeling hasn’t gone away in a while. I realise that I have high standards and that they’re difficult to attain. But I promise if you get up here, the view is AMAZING. I’m reminded of all the moments where I’ve tried my damnedest to cater to the needs of my “friends” and “lovers,” when what I needed to do was ask for my own. So many people have looked at me like I’m a bottomless pitcher, that I can pour out and fill them up, over and over. That’s exhausting. I’m tired.

This song makes me realise how badly I would like to have some fuckin’ reciprocity in my relationships. Too much to ask? No.

Not anymore.

-Leave you where I found you… I figured you out.