MzMasquerade

Overcome my eating disorder. (read all 21 entries…)
Untitled 20 months ago

YUCK YUCK YUCK i haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaate this.

it’s been, 2 hrs since i woke up. maybe another hour or so til family comes home again for the day. i’m so restless. part of me just wants to eat something nice, part of me needs to be thiiiiiin and the rest of me wants to just forget it all and escape. I want a cigarette, i want to taste nice foods, i want to be drunk off my tits, I want to be spaced out of my brain on i don’t care what.

I know i already said but I’m SO restless. I should go and do something, anything, a change. I’m going to go be with my dog for a bit :) That’ll be enough. just small things is all you need to do. I’ve only gotta hold off til my parents come home, but then it just gets harder really because its not a matter of waiting out a few hours, it’s a matter of making lasting, effective changes and actually making things happen. EUGH. did i say eugh? EUGH!!!

May 05, 2008, 08:56PM PDT


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Librarian is making progress.

Projects

You sound like a woman in need of a project. I tend to have too many projects—do you want some of mine?

Here are some things I might do if I were at loose ends:
  • handicrafts—probably sewing or knitting with the hope I would one day get good enough to make clothes that actually fit in colors and textures I love
  • writing—maybe a novel in a month or a nonfiction book proposal
  • training for an athletic event or train a dog for a dog olympics or other event
  • plan a trip—whether or not I actually go
  • go through training to be on a community emergency response team
  • take a class—art, writing, history, literature
  • throw a party with a theme or volunteer to be on a committee that’s planning a parade or other event
  • volunteer with kids
  • make a video for YouTube
  • revamp my website

Of course, I’d start pretty much any of those by going to the library and getting books on the subject.

May 09, 2008, 07:27AM PDT | Respond to this


 

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