I totally binged today. I learned a few things from it though.

1. If you travel without buying fruits and veggies before hand, everything goes downhill.

2. I resolve emotional stress through binging (how can I change this?!)

What happened was I traveled to Dallas. So I had the stress of travel on me and then I got a speeding ticket (the first one ever). It sent me into a flurry because I’m so afraid to screw up after I finally gained my parents’ trust. Plus I was lost so I walked into a gas station and there were twizzlers (my vice). So then I downed a whole thing of those and sent my body into a rage of hunger that didn’t stop until I finally stuffed a whole calzone and side salad into my fat fucking face. I feel so angry at myself…I feel like I’ll never feel beautiful and thin ever. To let you in on a little secret…I tried to throw it up because I so upset but I couldn’t…..I wish I could have been strong enough to resist today.

How I will prevent this in the future:

1. Bring along grapefruits
2. Before walking into a gas station really coach myself not to give into my vices.
3. If I get mad or upset, scream instead of eat.

I can forgive myself for this and make up for it tomorrow by being extra healthy and working out more.