on Friday. he made me feel really at ease and even a little better about the whole situation. I am just going to do it. I made a bunch of spreadsheets for my girls to fill out all fo thier stuff and I will do mine this week. I shoudl be finished everything on time by friday so I can photocopy it all and send it in on Monday. I will then be set to go. I meet with the legal secretary on the following friday to confirm it all and then I await my court date. I heard from the credit counselor that in my area the court meets on the first wednesday of every month for this filing. I should have my court date June the fourth or July the second. Sixty days afterward, seeing if all things go well, I should be discharged and I will begin again. It will be like a new life for me. This has been the biggest source of tension for me in the last five years. I am embarassed by the state of my financial affairs due to a divorce. I guess I should feel lucky, some women would never leave bad husbands for the fear of the reprecussions. It is not a great feeling doing this but it is the final chapter of the disolution of the marriage in some way. It will be leaving the past behind and starting over again.

My dread is slowly turning into something a little more positive.