well, despite all the wonderful advice i’ve received from you ladies, despite all the info i’ve learned from research on the web, and despite how wonderful i feel doing ‘the right thing’, i’m going back to what i knew before. it’s like a demon that won’t leave. i’m not asking for sympathy or advice – i’m just venting. so i’m going to restrict myself to anywheres (i’m so hick) between 300 and about 700 calories a day. i super duper know it’s wrong, and i know that i’ll either fail or die trying, but i’ve got some screws loose in my noggin and doing this just feels like home – that’s the best way i know how to say it. anyhoot, even if i don’t care enough about myself to care for myself, any advice or encouragement i give to any of you will be good advice – advice leaning towards the right, healthy way of losing weight. i will probably post about any weight that i lose, but if anyone sees it and thinks ‘oh i’m going to do what she’s doing’ just keep in mind, anyweight i lose like this is probably water, muscle, or bone and will just pile back on as quickly as it can once i give in to temptation. sorry for the long post – i can’t help but be honest to such wonderful people who are all so supporting. thank you for all your help back when i was hear under a different name