there are so many things i have done that i have lost many friends because of lack of respect. my view on choices i make in everyday life are twisted and confused. it will take a while to recover, and let them forget what i have done. im not one to have regrets. its the people that dont realise its just me trying to live life as adventurous as i can.the one thing i have been working on is trying not to degrade myself until theres nothing left. im a problem drinker. and that needs to stop.