did it, alot, this morning!!!

sleept in that guys room, so sleept with my makeup on (stupid thing, but..) had felt a hard ‘bumb’ on my chin, so went ‘at it’ almost right when i got to my own room.
Had been thinking yesterday that it would help to tell that old friend, but doesn’t seem like it now.

I’m almost giving up hope! Done it for 15 years!
Must start at some therapy again.

is anyone taking medication of any sort? (ssri?)
i don’t feel like doing that. i don’t think it will help me, and tried it with many sideeffects..

I wish so badly i had fine skin, and DIDN’T pick. I’m ruining myself! Scors, scars, and probably getting wrinkels and looking old before my time, from all the stretching and pulling my skin..

What to do!!!!!!!!!!!!???

can’t keep doing this, picking myself up from the floor, every second, or every day.. or, it seems it’s all i do. It’s taking all my time, energy and thoughts. It’s taking my self esteem, gets me depressed and so on..

seriously, there must be something we can do, that REALLY helps, it’s not a good life, it really isn’t!!!!!