hey people..
i need help to find out who i really am…i am a 21 yr old just thru with my graduation and really have no idea what i want form life even though i have a lucrative job offer in hand from a very reputed MNC.all my life i have been an obedient child ..doing well in my studies..exceeding my parents expectations every academic year..failing them only on rare occassions..so much so that seein them happy made me happy..i was doing things for them..and then i met this guy wen i was 16 and its been five years i have been with him..he is not doing tht great career wise as i am n though i would love to marry him eventually but it may not happen coz we have chosen diametrically opposed career paths..n then our levels of intelligence too vary a lot…i dont know..i have loved him and hee has loved me genuinely..hes a great guy and any woman wud be lucky to have him..but somehow i just done feel the spark for him anymore..as is on days i do..on others i dont..i feel like running away from him or my other over achieving friends…i have been so dependent on him..n so selfless in dealing with this relationship..puttin ‘our’ needs ahead of my own..thinking all the while that its hard to find good guys..but i need a break right now..to discover myself..that what i am and can be without him..what can i do with my life…where do i find contentment..i want to live my life..commit mistakes..learn from them..but m also a very negative person..infact even with postive developments i turn negative !..i badly need help..m sitting at home these days coz my joining date is a month away but as they say an idle mind is a devil’s workshop..same is the case with me..i kep on thinking endlessly about my future..my life..about what i want..
Comments:
I don”t know much, but what I have learned in my life, and what I practice, is that you should do what makes you happy. I too used to live to make my parents happy by doing all that they wanted to the utmost. But now I know that I didn’t live my life. You should take a break. Finding someone special is hard to find, but if he loves you as much as you think then he will let you go your way so that he may find you later if your paths cross again.
I have let women go when they have told me that they don’t feel anything anymore, or that they want a break. And I find that sometimes I have been wrong for not trying to keep them. I feel that if he loves you he will agree to let you go after fighting to keep you. How he will do that will show you how much he loves you and what he thinks of you.
If you really feel that you have to go out and try something new then be ready for the fact that you might lose him forever cause as men sometimes we cannot accept or let go of the things that our partners do.
You have a lot in front of you. It sounds like you have a great bright future to lood forward to. I suggest you do what feels right because if anything goes wrong you can always say that you were doing right cuase you were following your heart.
Good luck to you.
