im sorry that i sound like a horrible person. But the past has really dragged me down a bad path. i need freedom. I need to somehow show them that they don’t affect me so they leave me alone.

Its gotten to a point that I cant stop crying and when im not crying im thinking over it all. Trying to figure out when its me who is wrong??

Im no good at being gracious, where as these people know how to play off others so that they look innocent, whereas i just say what happened out loud then i get called jealous. And for the life of me I don’t see how that makes me jealous??

Anyway the boyfriend i got now is the one who is pushing me to drop them cos they arn’t treating me right. One especially is just playing games cos she knows she has done a really bad thing.

Sorry to bitch guys but Im getting through it faster then i thought i would!!!