well, dad told me today, “you need to be happy alone” “you need to learn to live without a man….” “men never like it when women are needy”

oh, and “you should take dance lessons”

well, he was kind, and gave me his honest feedback, and he did listen to me obsessing and rambling in post-break up speak. I haven’t mentioned to him that I am sort of seeing a girl rignt now. Somehow, my thing with her is becoming more and more clearly a rebound/fade into friendship. My dad is right, I need to be alone and be good with it. I need to get my own plan back on track. Wait, first I need a plan, then I’ll see about getting it on a track. Before, my plan was, to try and convince B that we should start a family and get married. Now that plan has been flushed. I have no idea what my life plan is now…..survive, look forward to next paycheck, make sure a vacation is planned so I can have something to look forward to. I think it is high time I re-evaluate what I value and admire and want to embody. May need to set a goal for this. Getting back to basics, this is all good, just doesn’t really feel all that good.