Trauma_Junkie needs to clean up her goals list.

Fight my Disordered Eating with Vehemence. (read all 23 entries…)
Ok this is my new number one goal 13 months ago

Some of you might have noted some wierd food related goals popping up for me lately. I’m going to have to revamp some goals that are sort of hindering my progress on this.
I never thought I would have an eating disorder. I thought that was for 12 yr old girls. I’m at a “normal” weight right now. I have not been eating very much for a long time and thus i can only run so far, so fast and then I simply get super weary and cant do much else the rest of the day. Multiple diagnosticians agree, and they do know more than I about these things.
I gotta admit, the entire thing is overwhemling. but I have this as a problem and now is the time to atually fight this problem like a warrior (warriorette?) rather than pretend to fight it like I have been doing for a few years now.
This, my friends, is really not fun, but it is up to me, and I do get to do the work.

Jun 09, 2008, 01:57PM PDT | 32 cheers


Comments:

Flirt thinks 43T is in a time warp!

Loads of hugs for you, TJ

and any other kind of support we can offer you. I can’t even begin to imagine how tough this is for you.

((((((TRAUMA_JUNKIE))))))

Jun 09, 2008, 02:08PM PDT | Thread | Respond to this 3 cheers

Trauma_Junkie needs to clean up her goals list.

Thanks Flirt

It’s a lot harder than I thought.

Jun 09, 2008, 04:32PM PDT | Respond to this

gemmword

((((((((((TJ)))))))))

all the hugs and support you need are here.
Im soooo impressed with how you’re dealing with such a difficlt issue.
love gemmword

Jun 09, 2008, 02:15PM PDT | Respond to this 1 cheer

Contemplative Jenn is keeping the dream alive

courage and strength

You have already demonstrated how brave you are, TJ. I wish you strength and stamina in this fight.

There is no doubt you have a hard road to travel, but you can beat this. Be the warrior we all know you can be. We’re here if you need us.

{{{{{{{{{TJ}}}}}}}}}}

Jun 09, 2008, 02:43PM PDT | Thread | Respond to this 2 cheers

Trauma_Junkie needs to clean up her goals list.

Thanks

I dont feel very brave right now…but I am working on it.

Jun 09, 2008, 04:34PM PDT | Thread | Respond to this 1 cheer

Contemplative Jenn is keeping the dream alive

your bravery

is in naming your issue, owning up, and openly resolving to do the work, to battle this. That’s the first, and most important, step.

Trust me, TJ, you’re braver than you think.

Jun 09, 2008, 05:07PM PDT | Respond to this 1 cheer

Deni H is a master's degree student! WOW!

Virtual cheer...

for this, since I am completely out of them. Hope that if there’s anything I can do to help, you’ll let me know.

Jun 09, 2008, 02:54PM PDT | Thread | Respond to this 3 cheers

Trauma_Junkie needs to clean up her goals list.

thanks

you know I just realized, if you were closer, I have an extry microwave…
:)

Jun 09, 2008, 04:32PM PDT | Thread | Respond to this 1 cheer

Deni H is a master's degree student! WOW!

How sweet of you...

that makes me smile. :)

Jun 09, 2008, 05:34PM PDT | Respond to this

Adar is getting stuff DONE!

TJ, you are a good woman...

and we are all cheering for you.

Do you good medical/psych support?

You ARE a warrior, and you will fight the good fight.

Jun 09, 2008, 07:06PM PDT | Thread | Respond to this 1 cheer

Trauma_Junkie needs to clean up her goals list.

I have

great doctor/nutritionist team. Very sharp, and a little intimidating. I dont often meet that many people who I think are actually smarter than me. One problem has been my actual friends who are all compulsive exercisers like myself…it’s an education, for sure. I’m doing well though, resolving to handle this as an adult has helped.

Jun 10, 2008, 02:38AM PDT | Thread | Respond to this 4 cheers

Adar is getting stuff DONE!

I'm so glad...

you have a good team behind you. That’s a key item for success.

Friends pose challenges when we are dealing with compulsive or addictive behaviors.

I know, for me, one of the surest ways to steer my own development is with my choices about the people with whom I spend my time. Are they going (metaphorically) where I want to go? If not, why exactly am I spending time with them?

The more truthful I can be about the answers to those questions, the better. I’m still working on this, obviously.

It sounds like you are on a very good path, with a great team. YAY for you!

Jun 10, 2008, 12:00PM PDT | Thread | Respond to this 2 cheers

Trauma_Junkie needs to clean up her goals list.

its

all a little bit surreal. I think in truth I’m going to end up leaning pretty heavily on the team, but really the key to success is going to be how seriously I stick to what they tell me, and not fool around like I am wont to do… :)

Jun 10, 2008, 06:41PM PDT | Respond to this 2 cheers

nonnacookbooker

TJ...

...so sorry you are going through this, but we are all here with you, to support and give you strength and love…

You are a fighter, and I know that you can do this..

Love and hugs ~ Nonna x

Jun 09, 2008, 07:21PM PDT | Respond to this 1 cheer

RuthG pulling down overgrown ivy

Good for you, TJ.

Just by naming it, you became a warrior. With your crack doctor/nutritionist team as backup, you will surely prevail!

It is hard, so I’m sending prayers & hugs.

Jun 11, 2008, 09:13AM PDT | Respond to this 4 cheers

JudithKD Hello? Where did I go?

Yeah TJ!

It’s hard admitting there’s a problem, but you know that’s the first step.

I hope this becomes a past problem fairly quickly and easily.

Many blessings!

Judith

Jun 13, 2008, 05:37PM PDT | Respond to this

Niel is figuring out if he likes what he's doing.

Hey TJ

It’s a good thing that you caught yourself while you were at “normal” weight :-)

It’s a thing worth fighting, but the fight is odd. It should not frantic and struggling, but deep and deliberate.

Jun 13, 2008, 11:35PM PDT | Respond to this 1 cheer

lynner um...hello again! I've missed you!

bravo!

it brings to mind something I just read about life….you can’t stop the waves, but you can learn how to surf them.

hope you find the green room soon, TJ.

Jun 13, 2008, 11:43PM PDT | Respond to this 1 cheer

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Jul 17, 2008, 01:43PM PDT

Trauma_Junkie needs to clean up her goals list.

Thanks NYC

it’s actually been pretty awful.
right now I feel a bit like I am wallowing in confusion and self pity, but hopefully I’ll make a few good decisions and stay on track.

Jul 20, 2008, 01:04PM PDT | Thread | Respond to this

PurpleHeather has both her father and father-in-law in different hospitals right now

You're a fighter

I know you can do this. You’re so strong and motivated on many things in your life and you know that the benefits in the long run are worthwhile.

Jul 20, 2008, 01:34PM PDT | Respond to this 2 cheers


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