Where you been all my life hey?? he! he!
Im giving up things as we speak, but finding that making that change is changing not only me but my circle of people around me!
I feel i am becomming boring!!!
Things are ok out here at the moment but i have stopped drinking and have done for some time, the odd beer here and there but not any real binges!.....and no real motivation to either….just like drugs really when the good times are shrouded by the bad its time to pack it in and get out!!
Not saying that im gonna quit the booze i love a drink, just out here im at the gym all the time and by not going out and drinking i have mannaged to isolate myself a little!!.....Just the way it goes….I knew the score when i took myself away from it all abit, Im wanting to move on again!....
What im looking for is not here!!!
looking into the fire service and paramedics again, but in reality, will this career move really sort me out??
Little bit lost again!!...and have been for the past month or so!!! lol… Geuss i always was but had a new move or job or country to take my mind of it all!!!
I hear you with the bigger love but there isnt anything there between me and God at the moment…..at my present not ready for him even!!!
excellent news about Allye….that woman is going to go far and do so much with her life, just like mum i geuss!! she will love it!!!!!
I have saved an amount and want to do several things with the money including a visit to see you guys!! But adiment that work will come b4 treats etc!!!.....
I have become boring and stagnant i belive and feel the need to rebel or to be set free again…. not oin the sense of God at the moment but just, up and leave!!! Go seek!!! ....so maybe god is involved there somewhere….I do belive its him that will giude me after all!!...we have an understanding me and the big guy….we dont talk much and i do alsorts he isnt happy with but we both know we will catch up and have a big chat one day!! he! he!
Carol i miss you!!!
