Since I was four years old, I have allowed people to shape my thoughts, and allowed them to hurt me. I’ve been picked on for everything I can think of growing up, my size especially. Unfortunately, when I get depressed, the first place my thoughts go are to what people have said or done to me in my life.

I’m nearly 22 years old, and I need to take charge a little more. I need to not allow people to get the better of me. Just last week I let a person with special needs eat at me, something he said, anyway. I saw him after working out so I was in nasty ratty old clothes that fit poorly but were the best I had for working out in and he told me I got fat, mind you I haven’t really seen him in a couple years, but for the next few days it ate at me and I felt miserable.

I can’t allow that to happen anymore, especially if I want to learn to love myself more.