It’s really odd. Everything you just said I can completely relate to. I’ve tried to quit smoking in the past to no avail. Recently I have gone through the same kind of experience. It’s like a complete reversal overnight. Granted there were a few elements that helped out in the beginning of the quitting process; girlfriend, being broke, being around family, excersizing regularly, and feeling better about myself in general. But the fact remains, I still crave them, but i can never picture myself doing it again, or at least enjoying it again. It makes me want to vomit, it’s vile, it’s backwards, it’s unhealthy. I’ve never felt this way before, and i wonder if someone has hypnotised me in my sleep. I don’t have willpower!! it just happened.
To be honest, the first few times turning away from the gas station on the way to class were huge for me, and did take a lot of willpower. once iget over that it was smooth sailing.