this morning marks the end of 5 days without food, or keeping it down.

i had to have breakfast today and i couldnt bring it up no matter how hard i tried, so i have to face the fact that it is inside me.

i’ve drunk 6lbs of water in a vain hope of flushing it out, but its not going to work.

im thinking about telling someone about this disorder, probably an ex i can trust as she has trusted me with things too and i know she will understand and listen.